So, me and my ex will be going out again. *sigh* i know right. totally stupid. this will be attempt #5, with only 1 of the previous attempts actually turning into dating.
But seriously? i don't care. somehow i always knew that things were never quite finished between us. so, on december 21 (yes, that is my birthday, so i'm kinda scared that if we break up my birthday is gonna be el-lamo from now on) we will be going out again.
don't tell me i'm stupid, i already know. but the truth is, he's amazing. even in the 2 years and a bit that i have known him, there's always been something that keeps bringing me back to him. not just the heart racing or the constant inability to think or the desperate attempts not to act like an idiot in front of him... there's something else that i'm not really sure i can put my finger on, just yet.
we still have a lot of work ahead of us. he's only recently come back to church and rediscovering what Christ did for him (which i have been praying about ever since i met him... i guess i really have witnessed a miracle because he's living proof that no matter how far you stray, just like that, Christ can bring you back again). but he said that he wants me with him on that journey, and i can't ask for anything more than that. i've grown up and learned so much since high school. he makes me want to change who i am, but also that i'm loved for exactly who i am right now. he's inspired me in so many ways in the past, and i'm kind of looking forward to being in a relationship again.
yes okay so it's still a whole month before we're actually gonna go out... he was going to ask me out today because it is his birthday, but i said i didnt wanna be asked out via sms

yes! i didn't give in

so we are waiting, and we'll see what God has in store for us.
on the flip side, however, i'm kind of petrified of being in a relationship again. (yes, i realise i just said i was looking forward to it). i just would like to not get carried away. i don't want to change so that i can be who he wants. i will keep my friends and do all the same things that i do now. but i think that over time, we eventually all take on little pieces of our partners, whether we realise it or not.
that's where i'm at, atm, and i'm praying God will bring me ever closer to him in the mean time.
hope everyone is well, i wish i could see you all in one place! that would be awesome

love,
Jess
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